Kindness is not necessarily nice, but striving to be kind is much more virtuous that merely being nice. Truth can be kind, but truth is often not nice.
I am learning how to not be okay all the time.
Others do not get to dictate how long or how much a person feels sad, lonely, hurt, or frail. They do not get to silence one’s feelings.
Learning to shed the criticisms and the expectations of others is not easy. Learning that feeling and expressing life’s sadness as well as life’s joys does not make one weak.
It is okay to be something other than okay.
Life is tough, even a good life, even a blessed life. It not weakness to feel frail, tired, and hurt. It is not weakness to get frustrated and angry. It is only weakness when those emotions dominate one’s life.
It takes courage and it takes perseverance to make a change – and many more hard-fought battles after the first has ended.
I do not need you understand my pain.
I need you to understand that I work every day to rise above it and to prevent it from leading me into the depths of despair.
I need you to understand that there are days when I succeed in my efforts – magnificently succeed!
I need you to understand that there are days when I stumble, falter, and succumb; when fear overshadows my focus and clouds my skies.
I need you to understand that on these days, my countenance and my behavior do not reflect on my perseverance, my hope, and my joy.
On these days, I need you to understand, there is simply a cloud or two in my otherwise light filled life.
First I laughed so hard it hurt,
Then later I cried the tears of healing,
Finally, I slept.
Handspun yarn is much like life. The beauty is found in the lumps and bumps as well as in the smooth sections.
Spinning and knitting in small scale can be a fun way to try out new ideas. Working with small gauge needles when the hands no longer cooperate all the time can be a challenge, but I am learning to embrace that challenge. The speed and dexterity of my youth may be long gone, but patience and determination have become my companions.